The Buffet

For lunch today Mary Ellen wanted Chinese or Japanese.  The only place around was a buffet.  I tend to avoid buffets since my surgery simply because I don't eat enough to warrant paying the price for them.  But in order to avoid the drama that I would have to deal with I agreed to it.  They had sushi and that worked for me!  So as I'm sitting there slowly eating my 5 pieces of sushi I can see everyone filling their plates at the buffet bars.  Some of these plates were heaping.  Some people had 2 plates.  I was seeing people go back 3 and 4 times.  I was thinking to myself "wow, how can they do that?'  Then I realized, that was me.  Yes, that was me.  I use to love buffets.  It was nothing for me to eat 4 or 5 plates full of food.  I'd eat until I was sick and then eat some more.  I had to change my mind on how much I could eat.  Not only did surgery help me do this but I had to change my mind to do this.  Yes, I could probably eat more than I do and walk around feeling like a tick on a 30 day suck but I don't want to do that.  I want to enjoy what I eat and walk away full but not to the point of being sick.
Food is some people's drug.  I know it is mine.  I was able to walk out of there today not feeling overly stuffed.  Will I hit up a buffet anytime soon?  Probably not.  I'm amazed at how much my tastes have changed and how I no longer crave this type of stuff.