Dreaded Doctor's Appointment

Two weeks ago I went for my two year follow up. I had gained 12 pounds from my lowest point. I felt defeated and disappointed in myself. The doctor changed a few medications and gave me lots of great advice. I've tried to change my eating habits back to smaller, more frequent meals. I've increased my protein and decreased my sweets. I've lost 3 of those pounds and will hopefully have the other 9 off before the next doctors visit.

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The Buffet

For lunch today Mary Ellen wanted Chinese or Japanese. The only place around was a buffet. I tend to avoid buffets since my surgery simply because I don't eat enough to warrant paying the price for them. But in order to avoid the drama that I would have to deal with I agreed to it. They had sushi and that worked for me! So as I'm sitting there slowly eating my 5 pieces of sushi I can see everyone filling their plates at the buffet bars. Some of these plates were heaping. Some people had 2 plates. I was seeing people go back 3 and 4 times. I was thinking to myself "wow, how can they do that?' Then I realized, that was me. Yes, that was me. I use to love buffets. It was nothing for me to eat 4 or 5 plates full of food. I'd eat until I was sick and then eat some more. I had to change my mind on how much I could eat. Not only did surgery help me do this but I had to change my mind to do this. ...

Addiction...

I want to get back to my blog because, well, I've not written anything in well over a year. Writing helps me and I just need to get back to it. In that year I have put on some of my weight. How much...oh, like 35 pounds! Some of that is from my hormonal change after a hysterectomy. Some of that is stress. But most of that is my addiction. My name is Shannon and I'm addicted to food. Yes, addicted to food. It is my drug of choice. I'm not addicted to healthy foods. I'm addicted to sweets to the point that I have days that I eat nothing but sweets. I have tried several medications to help me but none have helped so far. I am going to be working on myself again and working to overcome this addiction. It is so hard but I can do it.

Getting my mind right...

Well, it has been a little over 2 years since surgery. I was down about 120 lbs. I regained about 20 lbs. I hit a number on the scale that I said I would never see again. How did I do that? I went back to old habits. Sweets, bread and high fat & calorie foods. I cried in the doctor's office when he looked at my weight. He didn't scold me. He just told me that I have to get my mind right and get back on track. I pretty much beat myself up over this. I stressed and I cried. I was so disappointed in myself. Here I was scrutinizing every morsle of food my husband was eating while I sat back and ate the same, if not worse, foods. Last week I was scrolling through Facebook and found an article at bariatriceating.com . This article said a few things that I needed to hear. 1. Just a little of what made me fat before will make me fat again. 2. I don't need the pasta and bread so leave it out of my diet. 3. Starbucks needs to be off my diet. 4. Prot...

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