A Princess in the Making...

Proud of my little family for surviving Boot Camp together last night!  Thanks Haskle for pushing us.  All 3 of us have goals and we are going to meet them!

For lunch today Mary Ellen wanted Chinese or Japanese.  The only place around was a buffet.  I tend to avoid buffets since my surgery simply because I don't eat enough to warrant paying the price for them.  But in order to avoid the drama that I would have to deal with I agreed to it.  They had sushi and that worked for me!  So as I'm sitting there slowly eating my 5 pieces of sushi I can see everyone filling their plates at the buffet bars.  Some of these plates were heaping.  Some people had 2 plates.  I was seeing people go back 3 and 4 times.  I was thinking to myself "wow, how can they do that?'  Then I realized, that was me.  Yes, that was me.  I use to love buffets.  It was nothing for me to eat 4 or 5 plates full of food.  I'd eat until I was sick and then eat some more.  I had to change my mind on how much I could eat.  Not only did surgery help me do this but I had to change my mind to do this. ...

I've been working my butt off for the past few weeks at the gym.  It made me feel good today that Steven told me that he is proud of me for sticking with this.  However, I'm frustrated because the scale isn't moving.  While I know that I'm gaining muscle I need to see the scale move too!  I have a goal that I need to get to.  I need a surgery done and can't get it until I hit a certain number.  The insurance company doesn't care about the muscle gain.  They just care about the numbers.  But I've got this.  I will see that scale move next week!

After almost 2 years of no weight loss after my surgery I was about ready to give up.  Now, yes, I have lost over 100 pounds and I have kept them off but I never hit my "goal."  I started reading up on things about surgery and one common thing that I saw was people putting the pounds back on.  Umm, no!  I refuse.  Then I started really thinking about the people I know that have had bariatric surgery.  I know people who have had the lapband.  I know some that have had gastric bypass.  Oh, and I know some that have had the vertical sleeve done.  Out of all of those people I can picture maybe 5 in my head that have kept a majority of the weight off.  So why did they go through all of this major, expensive surgery and allow themselves to get back to where they started?  Why?  I start looking at their pictures or seeing them in public.  They are back to where they started (even a few at a higher weight) because 1.) they didn't ...